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Saturday

Disconnect....

     The passing years with my mentor were an unfolding drama that I was... and was not... a part of. I seemed to play a dual role, in that I was in this play and watching this play at the same time. Well, not exactly at the same time. My location in the scheme of things seemed to switch back and forth.
     One moment I would be a participant, and the next, an observer. I seemed to be able to switch my perspective, almost at will. So if what was going on in the drama was too unbelievable, too bazaar, too terrible... I could leave the scene.      
     There was a spot up in the corner of the room where I could huddle and watch. That safe little hiding place allowed me to be someone else and somewhere else... and no matter what I saw from up there, I didn't have to take it personally. Everyone should have a place like that.

Dissociation [read more about this]

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

The next time I read a blog, I hope that it doesnt disappoint me as much as this one. I mean, I know it was my choice to read, but I actually thought youd have something interesting to say. All I hear is a bunch of whining about something that you could fix if you werent too busy looking for attention.

ELHG said...

Dear Anonymous Reader,
It is true, you do not have to read here. It is also true that each of us will find our own way to deal with our difficulties. This is my way. Thank you for stopping by.

Hope Laska said...

Anonymous, what a rude comment! For those of us who have survived similar abusive circumstances, the thoughts shared on this blog are comforting and healing. I am appalled at the insensitivity of your words.

ELHG said...

Dear Hope,
Thank you for your comments. You helped me more than you know. This was the first negative comment I have received, and I have only recently started sharing my experiences. I am in hopes that coming together to share what has happened to us can support many. Please keep reading.

Catherine Thiemann said...

Dear friend and fellow survivor,
I am stunned at how thoughtless and cruel "Anonymous" was, and how gracious you were in your response. Thank God for Hope stepping in to affirm and encourage you!
God bless you, ELHG! You are so brave to tell the story of your abuse when Christian friends and leaders have rejected and silenced you so often. I hope you have gained strength through telling it, and a sense of God's deep sorrow at what your abuser did to you.
May your healing continue always. May your words be an encouragement to all of us.

ELHG said...

Thank you for your kind comments. How satisfying to know that another reader has found my blog worth the reading.

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Psalms 37:40—"And the LORD shall help them, and deliver them: he shall deliver them from the wicked, and save them, because they trust in him."

Jeremiah 23:1-4—"Woe to the shepherds who destroy and scatter the sheep of my pasture" declares the Lord. Therefore thus says the Lord, the God of Israel, concerning the shepherds who care for my people: "You have scattered my flock and have driven them away, , and you have not attended to them. Behold, I will attend to you for your evil deeds," declares the Lord. "Then I will gather the remnant of my flock out of all the countries where I have driven them, and I will bring them back to their fold, and they shall be fruitful and multiply. I will set shepherds over them who will care for them, and they shall fear no more, nor be dismayed, neither shall any be missing," declares the Lord.

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UNFINISHED MELODY

Someday, Lord I pray,
there will be a place for me,
where ears take time to listen,
where eyes take time to see.
A place where I can laugh and cry
and know that I belong.
Someday, that's where
I will sing my song.

And someday, Lord I pray, in a place......
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The Power of Pentecost
This sermon helped me so much... and gave me the push I needed to begin the healing process in earnest. Thank you to the minister who wasn't afraid to preach it!
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Looking Forward In Faith
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During a recent Sunday morning worship service I was blessed to hear a sermon that spoke to my heart, and reminded me that I am forgiven. I will cling to these words as I continue to move from victim to survivor to thriver.
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Oh, For the Wings of a Dove

[Mendelssohn]
Oh, for the wings,
for the wings of a dove,
Far away,
far away would I rove!
Oh, for the wings,
for the wings of a dove,
Far away,
far away, far away,
far away would I rove!

In the wilderness
build me a nest,
And remain there
forever at rest
In the wilderness
build me, build me a nest,
And remain
there forever at rest