The passing years with my mentor were an unfolding drama that I
was... and
was not... a part of. I seemed to play a dual role, in that I was
in this play and
watching this play at the same time. Well, not exactly at the same time. My location in the scheme of things seemed to switch back and forth.

One moment I would be a participant, and the next, an observer. I seemed to be able to switch my perspective, almost at will. So if what was going on in the drama was too unbelievable, too bazaar, too terrible... I could leave the scene.
There was a spot up in the corner of the room where I could huddle and watch. That safe little hiding place allowed me to be someone else
and somewhere else... and no matter what I saw from up there, I didn't have to take it personally. Everyone should have a place like that.
Dissociation [read more about this]
6 comments:
The next time I read a blog, I hope that it doesnt disappoint me as much as this one. I mean, I know it was my choice to read, but I actually thought youd have something interesting to say. All I hear is a bunch of whining about something that you could fix if you werent too busy looking for attention.
Dear Anonymous Reader,
It is true, you do not have to read here. It is also true that each of us will find our own way to deal with our difficulties. This is my way. Thank you for stopping by.
Anonymous, what a rude comment! For those of us who have survived similar abusive circumstances, the thoughts shared on this blog are comforting and healing. I am appalled at the insensitivity of your words.
Dear Hope,
Thank you for your comments. You helped me more than you know. This was the first negative comment I have received, and I have only recently started sharing my experiences. I am in hopes that coming together to share what has happened to us can support many. Please keep reading.
Dear friend and fellow survivor,
I am stunned at how thoughtless and cruel "Anonymous" was, and how gracious you were in your response. Thank God for Hope stepping in to affirm and encourage you!
God bless you, ELHG! You are so brave to tell the story of your abuse when Christian friends and leaders have rejected and silenced you so often. I hope you have gained strength through telling it, and a sense of God's deep sorrow at what your abuser did to you.
May your healing continue always. May your words be an encouragement to all of us.
Thank you for your kind comments. How satisfying to know that another reader has found my blog worth the reading.
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